Britney Spears On Justin, Her Breakdown, & Being Famous

The first 30 minutes from Britney Spears' new documentary, Britney: For the Record, were screened for media Thursday.

In the movie - which premieres Nov. 30 on MTV - Spears reveals her feelings on splitting from Justin Timberlake, her 2007 breakdown that landed her in a psychiatric unit and her current state of mind.

The documentary starts the day after her appearance on this year's VMAs, and follows her for three months. Below, excerpts from EW.com:

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE:

"With Justin, he was part of the magnitude of what I had become. So when he was gone I was like, What am I supposed to do with myself? I was devastated [by the breakup] but I handled it a lot better than the [split] with Kevin.He started to do an album for himself and he started to do things for himself, and I just never saw him anymore.When it ended I felt so alone. I didn't really wanna think about the reality of it. I never faced it.I just ran."

THE 2007 BREAKDOWN:

"My trust has really been battered.Sometimes it can get kinda lonely.I had totally lost my way. I lost focus. I lost myself. I let certain people into my life that were just bad peoplebecause I was lonely.I really paid the consequences for that. Big time.What the hell was I thinking?"

BEING FAMOUS:

"At first, it's amazing, the first year or two, because it's like, I'm a celebrity!.It didn't really touch me until I had been working for six years.I wanted to just stop. I wanted to create a new life."

CURRENT STATE OF MIND:

"Do I know my life is weird? It's all I've ever known. I don't see it as being weird.I'm kind of stuck in this place and I'm like, How do you deal? I just cope with it every day.It's better not to feel anything at all and have hope than to feel the other way.It's bad. I'm sad. It's like [the movie] Groundhog Day every day. It's really boring.Normal is really different for everybody.In my situation, I try to make it as normal as possible for me.It could be a lot worse. There are people out there who have it a lot worse than I do.I used to be a cool chick but I feel like the paparazzi has taken that away from me, like, the way I used to live my life. I used to be a cool chick but I'm not anymore."

Kudos to Britney for pulling it together, but IMO, she still has to deliver a great performance to cement that return. There are rumors that she make an surprise appearance/performance at the AMAs Sunday, but nothing is confirmed.